Respected hakeem sahab assalam o alaikum! My first request to you is that whenever you pray for long life for everyone, pray that I remain under your and my parent's shadow forever by the grace of Allah almighty because I don't know why I am always anxious that you may not be angry with me and similarly my parents. Pray that o always remain sincere with you, respect you, as much as you respected your murshid and Huzrut Junaid Baghdadi  رحمة الله علیہ  because I am in such an environment where there are many tricksters and people who speak bad of you but I want myself to be like if someone brings diamonds from paradise in front of me and asks me to leave Huzrut hakeem sahibدامت برکاتہم  , I may say like The holy prophet huzrut Mohammadﷺ, said while expressing his love for Allah almighty, that if you place sun on my right hand and if you place moon on my left hand, I will still Not stop calling my sustainer as my sustainer. Huzrut sahib I feel very guilty even if by mistake I feel bad about you in my heart, and I wish I could take my heart out and there would be some plate of peace that would clean up my heart so that no sinful thought or feeling would enter my heart. I am tired of my habit of vulgar thoughts and occasional abusing. Huzrut gee I want to become your best, best, best student. I was not able to come previous Thursday for which I feel sad each moment because my mother was not well and I don't know ways on them a girl who walks while hands in mother's hands. She gets tired while going to the academy with me. She Says, complete your B.A then we shall go to Tasbeeh khana easily. Kindly jyst pray that I may succeed. I am not well prepared but you frequently say that, when association is with nice and true people, issues resolve. So I am putting my effort and I trust my association with you, I believe that this student of yours by the will of Allah and your and my mother's prayers  On hard work that she every day gets on the bridge with me and after getting down, walks more distance of 15 minutes. Only Allah will keep my honor and I will get pass with very good marks. Alhamdulillah! I do meditation. When I sit so I feel some strange current in body and tears start flowing and I get goose bumps. Alhamdulillah! I recite tasbeeh whole day. Now I also do recitation of Quran. Every day I listen to sermon at home. I listen to the sermons of kashaf-al-mahjoob also. I remember you, your family members and staff of Ubqari office in my prayers.